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Butterflies in my closet
Your fingertips across my skin The palm trees swaying in the wind Images You sang me Spanish lullabies The sweetest sadness in your eyes Clever trick I never want to see you unhappy I thought you'd want the same for me
Sad day.
{Friday, April 30, 2010} 5:28 AM

Dear you,

I guess. I just have to walk out from your life. I know all this while, I've been wasted my time for liking you. I guess? :/

I is weak. Bloody hell yeah. I know that very well. Mhm, I'm suck at love. Like seriously. Why must I be in love? At the first place, how did I fall in love w you? HAHAHAHA. Yes you can laugh at me.

Maybe you didn't take it seriously, do you? Anyway, I wouldn't say those three words to you, if I don't really mean it. I will SAY it to YOU unless I really mean it. So, how many times did I say it to you? A zillions times? Haha, whatever.

Funny huh? I know. Mhm, I don't know whats wrong with me right now. I hate myself. Oh three words for me. FUCK MY LFE. (Y) Cool. I like it. How about you? Yes, maybe you will read my blog. Or high chances. NO. I know you won't read. Haha, it's just a waste of time for me to type it out here. But, nevermind, its okay. I understand (;

I always care about you dude. I just want you to realise it yourself. But do you? Yes? No?

Hmm, what else to say? Theres so many things for me to update here. But, now I forgot. Noob.

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Anyway, I want a happy family. That's all. Cus I couldn't ask for more. Dad, I hope you will change one day. Sister, please change your attitude. I beg you. Mum, I know I'm useless, I'm sorry. To my lil' brother, study hard. I know you guys can make it. Please don't make mum disappointed. I know I've disappoint her. I hope you guys won't. You still gotta long way to go. Muhd Amirul Haqiim and Muhd Aidil Ashraf, I love you. I really do. I know sometimes I scold vulgar at you, it's not that I hate you. I just want the both of you to study hard. Don't be like me. See, here I am, sitting at home doing nothing, shake leg. Do you want to be like me? I advice you both, please don't. You might regret one day. Sigh.

I didn't get it. I is very very very very very very very very very very very very disappointed. I feel very very very very very very very very very very very very useless now. Like seriously. Super duper useless. Don't talk to me. Thank you.

It's 5:50am, here I am, still awake. Ftw. I guess, I have to sleep now. Insomnia, please go away. I hate you. I've been sleeping late this few days. Bad bad baaaaaad. That's all for now. I guess. I need a shoulder to cry on. Tsk. I hate this. Damn it. (NAK NANGIS BOLEH?) Kay, I need to find a job. :/

I don't need a boyfriend, cus maybe I don't deserve one? I don't need anyone cus I'm very useless for now, always and forever. FML laaah. Nbccb.

-I've been alone so many nights now. And I've been waiting for the stars to fall. I keep holding out for what I don't know. To be with you. So here I am staring at the moon tonight. Wondering how you look in this light. Maybe you're somewhere thinking about me too. Okay, maybe no.

K G'bye♥.

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